When it comes time for our lives to end, what do we want to have given our lives to? As this cancer weakens my body I have been reflecting on what is truly important. My health is declining quickly these past few weeks and I am leaning more and more into Jesus.

Here are some thoughts on the Coronavirus and how it relates to my cancer.

Please join us at the Rock Church in Middlebush Auditorium on March 1 at 11am for a special tribute service with John. We will celebrate the work of Jesus in his life over the last 30 years of ministry and the last 20 years of ministry at the Rock Church at Mizzou.

Read this fantastic article written by my good friend, Brandon Hoops!

Ever since Feb. 20, 2019, I have been trying to figure out my new role. Being given a terminal diagnosis is not only emotionally draining, but it has challenged me to recalibrate how I look at life.

What an incredible day I had racing Ironman Ohio on Sunday! I felt so supported by friends and family and encouraged in the Lord!

If we are honest, most of us do “sad’ pretty poorly! As a culture we have little idea of how to do deal with hard emotions and grieve well.

Why does God let me suffer with this terrible illness? I believe HE wants to meet where I’m at and transform my heart to become more like His!

This suffering is very real and it is getting my attention. But what might God be doing in me right now? Pain just may be God’s way of getting our attention and awakening our hearts to His ways.

One of the great challenges with my cancer has been trying to plan for how long I have left to live. Glioblastoma is so aggressive and so unpredictable.

Amy and I attended a wedding just recently. It affected us all the way to the core. We both had tears in our eyes during the ceremony but did not know the other had been torn-up.

What is hope? What a bummer to have confidence in a false hope, we must figure out what “real hope” is. It for sure must be something sturdy, bigger and stronger than my problem.

Psalm 16 continues to speak to me in my in my season of confusion and anxiety. I’d love to share some of these recent reflections with you, this chapter is really something special!

Having a good attitude in the midst of suffering sounds crazy, but it is the pattern of those who have developed a beautiful walk with God.

Let me share with you how I plan to attack this challenge of crafting a new routine in my chaotic circumstances.

I find it very interesting that I can simultaneously be at peace and also be fearful. That must sound like I am crazy. Grieving is just like that, messy and inconsistent.

The question now becomes “how ought we live?”. What kind of people do we want to be in this tumultuous chapter?

I am completely convinced that doing “Thankful Binges” is the best way to live, as well as the best way to manage hardship and anxiety in our lives.

My personal practice and strong suggestion to battle anxiety is to go on a Thankful Binge. Thankfulness is the absolute best medicine for anxiety!

When you sign up love, you sign up for pain. Let’s decide today that we will not be people who run from the pain!